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Tuesday, April 18, 2006 || Thoughts flashing through my minds...
Yt didnt sleep well...tired though..keep tinking alot of things n keep reminding myself of stuffs.. conquered the whole floor area to sleep hehe..Hugging my eyeore n pig to sleep with me ytd nitex..feel so isolated and lonely haiz..trying hard to force myself to sleep but have a light sleep only... its 6.30am i'm laying on my bed n use my lappy early in the morning already...
Think back abt it relie No point nia.. is like we are old enough to make decisions and times we tend to run away frm reailty n truth... But sometimes I asked myself why dont we give 
both of us a chance ?? U wun know the outcome unless u try isnt it, i not desperate to find 1 but i know the feeling dont lies... I have to ask my heart what i wan, some sort of lost the way in a forest, but i know what i wan to achieve for the best for myself. Human feeling are so difficult to understand and my feelings are all entangled up... Hope to be free again...
Ytd nite chatted with ashley and juli, meeting ash today after my class at our old 'dating' place... hehe... Serangoon Garden Coffee Bean tat's my favourite places.. Sit there n talk can relie help to relax myself... =) Chatted with juli abt how's her class and told her mine.. Both of us was like =(...sob sob.. julil sms mi when u free i'm ur 'part time boyfriend la'don forget me leh.. PJ also hor..
Today suppose to meet ashley in the end cancel coz she got some imp. dates .. so i wanna to go bras basah to buy second hand book at least cheaper... I damn stress sia.. If i talk during lecturer lesson then i going to miss out alot of things liao.. Sad ah.. gotta to train myself to be attentive in all lessons sia.. Didnt relie understand if my weekend i didnt work i have to go and study outside lehz... So so so much to catch up.. self disicpline to do all these.. Feeling tired now.. tml class starts at 8 am so gotta to rest early tonight..
Suay ah.. today went to sch without my lecturer notes... I forgot to bring them out with mi... A bit blurred abt the time table and all the subject making mi headache.. abit confused didnt like to talk in class, so i was quiet la... trying to pay attention to all the lesson despite little sleep... JULI n TY gotta to teach me ah..... sob sob... I feeling so weird ah.. so quiet.. so unlike me.. but will get use to it soon!~!~ Cannot i muz stop these liao gotta to study hard!~!~ I CAN DO IT!~!
Will talk more tonight~!~! Ciao No energy are left to fight the emotional battle... Totally off~!~!
Rui Qin |Tuesday, April 18, 2006
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