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Wednesday, September 14, 2005 || Grant me strength... My Lord...
I dun know why... all out of the sudden... I feel so weak... Not physical but mentally drained in chasing the earthly things for so so so long... Relie no more strength in doing so... What the purpose of chasing things tat wun last forever??? I know my purpose for entering ITE is the path that God have set for mi long ago and He knows that this is the best path for my life journey... He also provide mi with alot of Good frenz who i can depend and work with ... Learning veri hard to be humble... I relie ashamed for things that i've done...
Today not my day definitely.... I dun kown why... recently have a few times quarrel with Juliz with pjts... I find it veri stupid... Frenship between us quarrel coz of pjts... not worth it at all... Perphaps the misunderstanding we had for one another or otherwise... I'm not perfect... More of hurts than angry... Maybe as what she had said abt mi that she find its hard to tolerate or maintain the mindset that i'm trying to get things done... Tears keep rolling down my cheecks and thoughts have flashed through my mind about all the things that we had gone through.... All the difficult times in sch... Relie feel stupid la.. Not in a good mood anyway...
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Rui Qin |Wednesday, September 14, 2005
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005 || SORRY
Sorry relie veri busy ... i dun know how to say also... juz too busy lahz.. hehe anyway i'm busy working so tat i can earn more money as well as to keep myself busy... even though it relie veri tiring but it keep mi occupied ....
Right now i also dun know what's i'm tinking also.... alot of things is rushing through my minds... juz came back frm student seminar that were held in KL tot after tat i will be more free but ... too pre-occupied with pjts too...
Alot of things nid to be done... my time management veri important ... i afraid one day i will collapse just like tat ... I wasn't as strong as i tot ... facing all the challengers not the physical types but mentally.... prephaps all these well i'm been facing all these things myself ... wasn't comfy to share with others.. i wish i have a shoulder for mi to cry on and cry it out loud... it was terrible.... relie... no lies.... Sorry might seemed the hardest words but why can't ppl understand one another or tink others before self? I know human are selfish... i'm tired of that... all the things around mi have been changing... hoping that things will fade as time goes by...
Hopefully things will get back to track for mi asap... i dun wanna to dwell on it anymore... Alot of things are beyond our control and my expectation.. The higher i hope the more hurts i'm facing .... Frenship... Family.... BGR ... etc.... Learning to let go... but honest speaking i'm enjoy my fren accompany and maybe i learn how to be a lonely already...
Dun wanna to share ... dun wanna to say... and likes to go out myself and shop till i drop...
Rui Qin |Wednesday, September 07, 2005
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