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Saturday, July 23, 2005 || Nothing more to ask for...
Can i say that i'm veri contented with wat i had already... I don't ask much more than these... even though human are selfish and tend to ask more than wat they want....But i got alot of surprise today....
(1) Mi n Juliz had been confirmed that we will be going to bangkok next january...
(2) Ms Peggy had decided to launch the website that we had done for her...
(3) Juliz n PJ had given mi surprise when i was sleeping...
(4) They make mi CRY.... SO TOUCH
This year i had spent my b'dae to the fullest... its was so differnet for the previous years.... Those was the time where mi n my sch frenz would hang out and spend my dae... But this year it something that relie let mi understand the meaning of TRUE FRENZSHIP... to others b'dae is a day where they can collects lotz of present like mi when i was still a little kid.... To mi whether my fren give a present or not is the blessing that come straight from their heart.... MY wish is that all my frenz are happy and my family memebers have ggod health there nothing much i can asked for bcoz all these $$$ cannot buy....My dad was funny he bought a watermelon then say is my b'dae cake put a candle on top can already ... i was stunned... hahaz...
Thankz Juliz n PJ for spending ur gals time to shop for the present.... i relie appreciated it frm the bottom of my heart... u gals had taught mi the meaning of true frenship and cherish the things that are in front of mi .... "A real frenship is something we have to build - in many ways it's a journey we take together" this sentence is taken from the book tat juliz have bought mi... Even though we dun know the path that is ahead of us and belief tat we met one another in life is not coincidence but by fate ... We should learn to trust and real fren are fren u can alw pour ur troubles out too....Last Wed we went to ahve lunch at seoul garden.... even though is the 3 of us but we had enjoyed each other accompany isn't tat wonderful tat was wat i'm looking in for a frenship the time we had together is memoriable....
Today my piggy family came to my house to have dinner together.... it was like a big family .... Unlike the few things when we had outside... We sat down together... chat and jokes together throughout the entire meals.... Fun! is wat i can descibe given mi a warm comfortable and bonding together.... Even though i didn't eat much bcoz i'm veri full but all the jokes have make mi go crazy...he peeled egg for mi to eat but i rejected but he volunteer to feed mi... wat the toot... my sister was there also make mi face so red.......no choice haf to eat.....
I relie enjoyed the time together... After dinner was abt 10 plus i was clearing up and washing the plates... VK was standing at 1 side (tat time onli got mi n him) kept looking at mi the way i'm doing my housewwork... I was so pai seh... told him to sit down dun look at mi he said he wants to see the way i do... up to him la feel so uncomfortable when people keep looking at mi.... To my surprise he helped mi to sweep the floor leh... wat the.... so so so so pai seh... didn't expect him to help mi....they stayed unitl 1am.... playing computers in my room and searching for themes and games... hahazzzz.....taking photos also... hehez... 
Rui Qin |Saturday, July 23, 2005
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Saturday, July 16, 2005 || Recovering
Ah ha... On the road to recovery from my sickness ar... having flu and sore throat for the past 1 week... and i had passed it to Juliz and Pj.... poor little panda and piggy i'm so sorry... Still feeling weak but beta than the last few days already...went to see a doc already..
Last monday juz celebrated mandy's b'dae with my piggy family... well things are well hopefully is not on the surface itself lahz... Suddenly i feel like don wanna to participate in the NDP already... They said only allow 108 of motivators to stay at the padang field to watch and motivate the audience.... i find it so ridiculous rite... we had been practicing for so hard in the end because of a few motivators who does not followed or listened in the end they wan the rest of motivators to get out... wat eva lahz.. relie lost the mood already....
I feel so down recently i don know why.... haiz... prephaps have to do WAD n Tourism pjt ba... but i love doing it.... not having enough sleep feel so exhausted till i cannot make it... Recenlty i had an intensive 'fight' with juliz abt CCA fair.... I dun know how to put in words... I had put all my effort in my cca but nothing seem to bloom... n i decided not to care so much like before coz i find tat i rather spend more time on my studies and frenz and family... I know it my respondsibilites but when a person who know nutz fight with a person who know music more than i do... i haf to stand one side..... Sometime i cried alone in one corner darkness ard mi ... i got no 1 to turn to... or prephaps i learning to hide myself, blocking myself away.... u can say tat i'm running away from the fact... i dun know how to put in words but all i can said is SORRY juliz.... hope u can understand and u know mi when i had one duty i will put in my best but... things isn't going on the right tracks and i'm busy with my work in order to survive ...
Not depending on my parents anymore for my pocket money .... anyway this few days i relie pissed off... my mood went down down down.... hopefully things will get back on track ASAP... thank guyz
Rui Qin |Saturday, July 16, 2005
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Monday, July 04, 2005 || Moving Forwards....
It does not matter how long a frenship had last... the most important is that you are comfortable with fren ard you! It had been a great time with the class of mine last fri...after so much things happened for the past 2 weeks... Confronting WWQ... Hey gals do u know tat it relie hurts to do that to a fren of yours.. can't help crying and tears rolling down my cheecks... It was a hard felt moment... i dun know how to explain because of a 1 year of being soft-hearted and i can't take it any more... afraid that i might explore one day... I relie take mi alot courage to talk coz i'm a person who doesn't like to treat my fren the way ... i haf been in the shoe before and i understand how it feel like... feel terrible ... aroustic pain.... hoping tat will help her to change but it failed...
I'm alw like to be clear of my path but sometimes when problems surfaced i chose to runaway from the truth and hide it away... hopefully time will cure everything but it isn't going my way.... sometime things are not going your way... who knows the inside of mi .. the hurtz that i'm facing... I might be hard outside but i was bleeding inside... people veri difficult to touch the deepest inside mi but too bad PJ n Juliz had done tat... Now i understand y my sis told mi tat ITE life is the best and u can find ur True fren in there....
i belief PRIDE alw lead people to nowhere... and if u nv put down that PRIDE of yours... u'll never learn anything... i not being a loud-haler trying to boost myself that i'm capable of doing such things... I haf once carrying a heavy PRIDE and in the end i lost everything ... Eventually everythings..... I was relie hard for mi to accept and recovered over a short period of time and took mi the whole 2 years without any frenz by my side... I've to pick myself up and continue to walk my life journey !~!~ Becoz u have to learn to stand up after all.. no point standing there and wait for people to help u...NO! This is ur life and life lies in your hands... When a child learns how to walk they will fall when trying... this also applies in everyone's life.... We makes mistakes is juz tat whether u take it n learn or forget it... Human are selfish we often tinks that we are rite n refused to admit when one makes a wrong moves... I learn to cherish and treasure things that are around mi and tried my best not to take them for granted.... Treating my frenz as myself coz in the end ... u wun know that one day ur frenz will help you in the nick of time...
Some people doesn't belief in a Long frenship but to mi ... I will not know what the future maybe as long as i live my life to the fullest without any regrets... I found my true fren and my soul in my life when i studying in ITE Clementi... It have given mi and proven mi the path i wanted to take... Thankz gals to be my side when i was downs and the time we had together.. shopping...eating.... sun-tanning... and not forgetting the Onik onik time together ya... I'm still recovering for the hurtz that i have received... (^(oo)^) I might appear to be cheerful... but nobody know that my heart is crying out loud...
Anyway...last fri Its was a farewell party for Ms daisy who has retired after 27 long years of teaching... her speech was touching which inspired mi more to achieve the dream tat i had since i was young... to be a TEACHER ... I love my class more than last year... and relie it MORE... perphaps we are going to graduate from the sch and everyone of us are clicking well with one another.... Looking forward to the M'sia trips... Sentosa trips and the Class chalet which are coming on our way... Holding every moment that we had closer... coz we might know that time don't wait and it time to say Good-Bye.....Don't Wait till the last mins then u learn to cherish becoz it already too late... Smile Alws (^_^)
"When the time we learn to cherish and enjoy each other accompany, it is also the time when we say Good-Bye!"
Rui Qin |Monday, July 04, 2005
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