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Saturday, July 16, 2005 || Recovering
Ah ha... On the road to recovery from my sickness ar... having flu and sore throat for the past 1 week... and i had passed it to Juliz and Pj.... poor little panda and piggy i'm so sorry... Still feeling weak but beta than the last few days already...went to see a doc already..
Last monday juz celebrated mandy's b'dae with my piggy family... well things are well hopefully is not on the surface itself lahz... Suddenly i feel like don wanna to participate in the NDP already... They said only allow 108 of motivators to stay at the padang field to watch and motivate the audience.... i find it so ridiculous rite... we had been practicing for so hard in the end because of a few motivators who does not followed or listened in the end they wan the rest of motivators to get out... wat eva lahz.. relie lost the mood already....
I feel so down recently i don know why.... haiz... prephaps have to do WAD n Tourism pjt ba... but i love doing it.... not having enough sleep feel so exhausted till i cannot make it... Recenlty i had an intensive 'fight' with juliz abt CCA fair.... I dun know how to put in words... I had put all my effort in my cca but nothing seem to bloom... n i decided not to care so much like before coz i find tat i rather spend more time on my studies and frenz and family... I know it my respondsibilites but when a person who know nutz fight with a person who know music more than i do... i haf to stand one side..... Sometime i cried alone in one corner darkness ard mi ... i got no 1 to turn to... or prephaps i learning to hide myself, blocking myself away.... u can say tat i'm running away from the fact... i dun know how to put in words but all i can said is SORRY juliz.... hope u can understand and u know mi when i had one duty i will put in my best but... things isn't going on the right tracks and i'm busy with my work in order to survive ...
Not depending on my parents anymore for my pocket money .... anyway this few days i relie pissed off... my mood went down down down.... hopefully things will get back on track ASAP... thank guyz
Rui Qin |Saturday, July 16, 2005
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