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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 || Lost ~!!~!~
Erm ... Times files wor... Finish our CMB paper at last ... next is our FMK paper .... Yesterday Von, Neli and Juliz came to Coffee Bean to study together ... Juliz bluff mi say that they not coming in the end they came ... over the phone was a bit of sad lahz...i know juliz also disappointed y response ... wahaha no lahz Juliz ... I too love ur accompany where we can Jokes and Laugh abt anything under the roof... hehe I relie speak from the bottom of my heart ... not forgetting PJ too.... yesterday at night i also meet my grp of sister at coffee bean where is our usual meeting place... i'm abit sad or can i said tat i'm totally a loser???
i dun know y... is juz tat out of sudden i dun have any words to talk abt in that grp of sis... but i like Juliz their's accompany... i relie feel like crying lehz... not being emotion or wat... anyway i went to eat with Von they all... we can jokes ard while eating... i love this kind of feeling...telling my "sis" i know that they are not happy with it... No comments for tat... or rather being play two roles to entertaint my two grps of frenz... is like Juliz they all r not shy of knowing my frenz... but i juz dun get it y my 'sis' cant understand... hurt abt e comments that Shevon had told mi ... Not sensetive or wat... is juz tat felt a gap in between them lahz ... Being pissed off like tat ... it juz dun know y ... but i dun feel the gap between Ashley and Jesslin ... maybe we have something in common to talk abt... like wat juliz and pj we can talked well... is there changes in mi till they cant stand or wat?? left mi hanging in the air.......... =~(
I'M SORRY JULIZ.. if i put u in a difficult position... i dun know why... i relie dun know.. maybe becoz they are in the poly i relie can say that we dun understand each other at all... i'm scared already relie scare alreadi ... Frenz take mi for granted... Veri hurtz... relie... i alw trust my frenz and treat them like myself... but after these things i tnk i will b veri careful alreadi "relie" not being soft- hearted... juliz u have scold mi for upteem times juz that i turn a deaf ear on u... Now i learnt my lesson even my closet person to mi... i relie need a shoulder to cry on a listening ear to b there for mi...
Rui Qin |Tuesday, May 17, 2005
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