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Monday, April 10, 2006 || 我是真的累了！
I'm Tired... Mentally Drained！I'm truly tired of everything... indeed... sometimes i question abt myself... why should i alw b the 1 to face all these alone.. i dun know.. relie dun know... I talked to juliz on the phone ytd and chatted veri long... we have so much to talk abt.. Abt my taiwan trips, and she was saying tat i throw her alone in Singapore.. hehe... sorry juliz dun mean tat.. well u haf planned the japan trip too.. so let's start to save up and go together!!! I promised i will go with u no worries...
Ytd we were on the phone talking abt the poly entry application... I was in daze.. didnt know wat to do.. waited quite long for the things, hopefully everythings goes well sia.. if not the next moment either i will stay in Singapore and worked for 1 year and continue my study or i fly over to Canada straight away... sometimes i will ponder for myself should i stay or get out beta.. I hope tat some1 can relie give mi an answer i dun know.. i relie dun know.. kind of lost myself already... I wanted to go but i dun bear to leave this places. A place where i so familiar with, a place with all of my frenz, family and also sad things that reminds mi of...
If 1 day i didnt say Bye to my frenz and leave the country.. i noe my fren will worry for me, sometimes i nid some1 to be there but it seemed empty and impossible to achieve that too.. I juz haf no confident in myself to walk out of the darkness alone.. I nid a hand, a hand with warm and able to hold firm to me and said "I'm here for you, don worry, trust me!" well.. its abit like drama ya.. haha =o) i mean tat wat i feel lah... i'm a person who tinks alot... Good, Bad or worst wateva it can be i can tink of... anyway its up to u guyz might tink... prephaps to some1 is PMS ba...
Ciao~
Rui Qin |Monday, April 10, 2006
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