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Thursday, October 18, 2007 || Scared....
Hi guyz...Erm.. My TEP have started for 4 days already. I'm quite satisfied with what i have it now.. Happy with my team-mates. They are fun to be with ard.. Maybe rite now onli. Today is a very busy day for us, we have a mini roadshow at the North Canteen selling IT products. I tot it will be quite difficult to sell but after the whole events its quite relieve that we are doing quite fine with it.
We manage to hit our sales target. Hopefully the next roadshow will be better. Anyway, everyday waking up at 6.30 am it like going back to my pri and sec days where i have to wake up tat time to get ready to go to sch. So sianz lahz and finish sch at 5.30 pm but after tat i have alot of things to do .. Like giving tuition and learning piano have already taken up most of my night time. The actual time i got home is ard 10 pm almost everyday.. Got to zzz at ard 12 plus and my dark rings are becoming more and more serious... Hahaha... Tartara... This is my group pics taken during the roadshow at north canteen today. Haha...
Recently i feel i'm not myself inside... Trying to fight the feeling, i know it will be not be apporiate but its kind that i wan to keep it to myself. Only myself and i know abt it, i dun wanna anyone to know coz its meant to be a secret. Before i get hurts again, i have already started to build up walls to protect myself from getting hurts again. I hope i will not coz the feeling isnt that great and i dun tink anyone out there will want to suffer like what i have gone through.
Sometimes i relie wish i can help my friends in all areas but i'm limited to the help i can give. I relie hope, trying hard to fight the feeling, supress it.. I hope that day to explode will never come!!
Today done a big grave mistakes!! And i damn scare till now pls.... Relie scare kena scolded lehz.. How ah?? Hopefully things will turn out fine k??? I pray hard enough.... Dumb me!!!
Justwannatobmyself!!! Idon'twannatofallintothebottomlesspitagain!!!
Rui Qin |Thursday, October 18, 2007
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