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Thursday, June 07, 2007 || Frustrated....
I juz being frustrated about myself, why am i alw tink tat i'm correct. Why am i also so useless? Why am i can't improve myself???
These questions are floating in my mind rite now. You might guessing why on earth i said these kinds of things. I simply can't stop hating myself. I wan to improve without any effort is useless.. I'm so useless right now...Yesh and i mean it at this moment!!!!
I'm alw worried things that are way beyond and nv think of things that are right in front of me. Today ICT presentation is SUCKS and is DAMN SUCKS.... Yes i cried in class.. I think there are too much things for me to handle liao. I dun know why this feeling overcome me for the past weeks liao..
I dun know how to explain but i feel tat things ard me have changed.. Even my frenz old frenz whom i know. The feeling is no longer like wat i had in the past. Its totally different but i tink this things affected me the most. I kept everything to myself and today i can't tolerate anymore. Its so difficult to say it out, maybe i can say tat our frenzship isn't tat strong anyway. I dun know, its is when a fren got a boyfren they will cut down going out with u and stuffs??? I dun know... its a big question marks for me to answer for all... Its like a stranger asking me stuffs, i dun know how to deal with it. Something is wrong, the conversation tat we had is like surface stuffs.
Today i saw her and talk to her but she don't seemed to be interested abt things that i wanted to say. I juz feeling hurtz, a hurtz tat i know its too much for me to find out. Am i sensitive? I doubt so... M i too over-reacting? I doubt so.. i hope somebody can help me to untie the misery that i'm suffering rite now. I quite sad! Totally!!!
Tears rolling down again!!! These few days are too emotional already. PMS??? Maybe but its only form part of it... Different ppl got different perspection of life, & i'm tired of it. Tired of being the one who put in effort in a frenship.. A claps nid two hands to form, 1 hand will nv succeed. Maybe all of us are busy with our own things but stop saying things that are too hurting for me to handle.. I dun know..
Pls dig a hole and throw me in!!!!!
Rui Qin |Thursday, June 07, 2007
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